Still Sick

Poor little guy has a nasty cold virus. I feel his pain because I have it too. He has coughing fits upon waking up in the morning. He gags on his solids and throws up his milk from tube feeds. He is not running fevers anymore though and doesn't act like he's in a lot of pain. He is clingy and fussy, but that is to be expected.

Rachael took him to see Ms. C. the awesome OT on Thursday and she greatly encouraged Rachael about Jimmie's eating. Despite the fact he is eating a little less, she feels he is still doing great and that it won't be long before eating is much less of an issue. Within a year she expects him to not need his tube regularly! She continues to insist that Jimmie doesn't need her anymore. Rachael however- does need her.

Rachael at this point has a lot of "post traumatic stress" wrapped up in Jimmie's eating. Any little bump or setback or slow down really throws Rachael into a tale spin with her thoughts, feelings and emotions. Rachael knows that her feelings don't always line up with reality on this, but she is still often very overwhelmed by them. An outsider (some one who's not me or mom or Justin) like Ms. C. who Rachael is assured that she knows her stuff with kids like Jimmie- is able to comfort, encourage and lift Rachael up in a way the rest of us can't. So we are very grateful for her help and wisdom and that she will continue to see Jimmie every month or so.

Please keep Rachael as well as Jimmie in your prayers. Jimmie's first year of life was also the fight of Rachael's life. It has been an enormous precipice that Rachael has climbed and she has been very bruised and battered on the way up. There is a lot of healing to be done. Having the experience she has had with her 2nd born after what happened with her firstborn has in some ways just added injury to injury . . .

God is so faithful! He has never left our side.

Love,
Amber